"sigh" -- roadtrip... there is a skant possibility that i might be interested in that, if i don't get into school. i'm supposed to find out if i get in at the end of the month, so until then, my interesting, planning, having fun life is on hold and we're left with get-up, go to work, come home, cook dinner, wait for boy life. not that that's bad, but this is all starting to get to me. i can't help feeling like i'm not doing anything. that i'm going to be working at the video store, wondering if i'm going to have enough for rent and grocery on that next cheque forever. i know that's not true, but it's just so hard sitting and waiting not knowing if i'll have something to be excited about. i'm starting to feel like i'm loosing it. i get the flu once a month. once every month! i don't think that's normal. it's not even that i'm particularly unhealthy or anything. it must be stress.



i should go. the navel-gazing is hurting my neck.


~meeko